For my children

It all started on April 22, 2015. My wife and I went out and celebrated our 15th year of marriage. That night she started to have some issues and stated that she was ok, just some stomach pain. At 315am on 4-23-15. She was up and I was helping her to the restroom. We both laid down said I love you and goodnight. At 6:15am on 4-23-15. The alarms went off to wake the kids up for school. I woke them up and went back towards our bed and I noticed that it looked like my wife had threw up. I went to wake her up and noticed that she was not breathing and her stomach had swollen 10x what it was last night. Screaming for the kids to go to the neighbors I pulled her off the bed and started CPR and called 911. As I was doing so, I could start to see that it was too late. She had already been down too long. My kids watched as I tried to save my wife, their mother, my soulmate. But when my friends from jasper FD and RPS arrived they confirmed my worst fear. She was gone. Since that day, we have struggled. Starting therapy to get some form of help for my children who are 14, 11 and 5. I have had one month off work. I could not deal with myself and needed to get my kids the help they needed. I really tried to go back to work. I worked until 10-15-2015 when I was hurt in my neck, shoulder and now arm pain have put me off work until I see an orthopedic surgeon to fix my bulging cspine discs and repair my shoulder. I am severely depressed with all that has happened, severe reduction in money. Not knowing when or if I can return to work as the same person I was before the accident that hurt me. I have been a public service paramedic for 13 years and I feel that I am falling apart. My pain is over my tolerance. My depression is so deep. I try to save every life I come in contact with, but I was even able to save the one I love so deeply. Since 10-15-2015 I have tried to pay the bills as they come in but with all that has happened this year and with Christmas coming up, I have hit a wall. I can't afford to keep my car. I can't afford to even try to think about presents. I can't even imagine what's going to happen if I have surgery. Prayers are welcomed. Donations will truly be a blessing to help my children and my stress level knowing at least I have tried. From the bottom of my heart. Thank you for taking the time to read this. My God bless you and yours.



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